Hello Freesoul! I'm sorry you are going through this. I understand that it is difficult, especially when parents do not fully support you. I am a special education teacher and tutor (I've been working with kids of all ages for over 12 years now) and a lot of my students experience what you are currently experiencing. My advice to my students, and to you as well, is you will not find peace and fulfillment by doing what others demand/require/ask of you. In pleasing others, you may give yourself away and eventually lose yourself. This leads to many negative consequences; emotional, mental, and physical. Please take my words with reason as I am not saying you completely disregard your parents or teachers, for example. Now, with this in mind, I encourage you to do research on the career path that you are interested in. In today's economy, I highly recommend that you become a well-rounded individual. I'm sure you have other interests, maybe you like telling stories. After all, film directing is a form of story telling. From an academic standpoint, I would recommend that you pursue an English degree, or an English minor, combined with your Film pursuits. Or, find a film program that will train you in multiple skills that you can apply to various careers or jobs. You will need something to sustain you while studying and while working towards your dream job. Creative jobs always carry a certain amount of stigma and incredulity, but don't let that stop you! High yield positions often have high risks. Find balance between your passions and the needs you have to fulfill to live. From what you've told me, it sounds like you may be going into your second high school year now. I want you to know that you don't need to have everything figured out now. Also, things might change and you have to remember that that is okay. Things change. Your parents might change their mind about your career interests, your career interests might change, regardless, know that change is okay. As an example, I offer you my academic career. Very quickly I'll tell you. I took a year off after high school because I was determined to become a published author. I soon realized that I had to get a job because I needed money to pay for some of my needs and expenses. After working a shitty job, I decided I needed a college education and accepted my acceptance (lol) into LaGuardia Community College here in NYC. I went in for Literature and Writing and I was adamant about learning French, formally, as well. My guidance counselor was a bit taken aback by how adamant I was about learning French, but it was important to me. I'm saying don't lose sight of what's important to you regardless of people's doubts. I did my associate's and realized I would need a bachelor's' and went to City College of New York and double majored in French and Spanish Languages and Literatures. Keeping with my interests in publishing, I completed the Publishing Certificate there too. I also minored in Enlgish. I also studied the Classics. I thought I was going to be a Classics professor someday. Almost a year after graduating, I realized I needed a Master's. I found a program that fit my interests and my life goals. Now I am getting two degrees at once, a Master's in Sex Education and a Master's in Sex Therapy. I still have a profound interest in the classics, and I will find a way to fill that in later on in my academic career. I am planning on going for a Phd in this stuff. Why? I have many interests and goals that can come together in my life professionally, personally, and academically if I am properly prepared. Am I still working towards getting published? Yes. But you see? At every step I made mistakes. My path has not been a straight shot yet I have not lost my aim. I just want to illustrate to you that things can gain clarity as you go along. Your goals will grow with you. And you will make mistakes. And that is okay. In fact, it is recommended and not to be feared. Some degree of anxiety is expected when it comes to these matters, especially if you are being pressured by those around you. You are doing the right thing by seeking advice, but perhaps you are not looking in the right place? Don't get me wrong, I do not mind your question at all and definitely welcome it. But my information and ideas will only get you so far. Talk to your guidance counselor at school or a teacher you trust, and they can help you reach out to your counselor if that is a little too intimidating to do on your own. They will have more specific and relevant information for you. Knowledge is not only power, but confidence as well. Do your research. Look at schools and programs. Think about how you're going to finance it. Talk to a financial aid officer. Contact schools. Once you feel confident with the information you've acquired, have a frank discussion with your parents. I hope that this is helpful to you and provides a different perspective. Now, in terms of your tarot reading, you are a minor and you present an ethical dilemma to me. To answer your question I would have to do two readings for you; I only offer one free reading here at the forums per site member. Furthermore, and reiterating, you are a minor and laws that I am vaguely familiar with do not allow me to provide you with any services without the explicit consent of your parents. I have done readings for minors before in-person with the permission of parents, some in the presence of parents, but we are in a different situation. I hope you understand and don't feel bad about it. In the case that you do get parental consent and proof of said consent, please feel free to contact me. I wish you the best of luck and that your path is filled with light, Melissa.